I dont know

I dont know wad Im doing,
I dont know where to go,
I dont know when Il be singing,
on my own show,
I dont know why Im like this,
Maybe madness is taking control,
But I think life's getting hopeless,
Yeah man Im on a high low,
Now Im thinking how to stop it,
Before I lose it completely,
Trying hard to avoid death's kiss,
Before things cant be changed permanently,
Bcoz theres too many things to do,
and i just cant afford to go,
its not bout me,
its the rest I care for,
my family's like this barren land,
Water I have to pour,
Coz for all they have done,
i owe them forever more,
Then this I would do,
for myself, just one,
going around the world,
helping everyone,
Spreading smiles,
priceless pearls,
But all this, is
taking too long to unfurl,
denying my bliss,
leaving me pissed,
even a little deranged,
coz this lack of purpose,
right now,
would leave even u insane,
the same way,
it gives me much pain
and songwriting,
is all i have that gets me away,
while singing gives me pleasure,
mesmerising in its own way, both
getting me through each day,
while the Lord,
man i got nothing to say,
He has been there for me,
even when i dint pray,
I know it would,
always stay that way,
He would never, go away,
Coz if he did, id be dead,
even after ive passed away,
wishing i dint exist,
wherever my soul would lay,
so i ask him, even among my,
mindless disarray,
that i would love Him,
as much as my heart may,
and keep the evil,
forever at bay.

Godlover